Its going

So finally got the scale working.

I am losing weight , just by being on this diet, BUT, I have not been exercising regurlary, an aerobics video here and there is not enough.

I not only need to lose weight, I want to be healthy and build up my stamina.

Gotta get off this damn couch and start moving.

I guess currently my head is so tied up in two things, my job and this guy.

BUT THATS A SILLY EXCUSE!!

Have to start doing more regular work outs, I know I will feel better.

New Beginnings 2014!

Ok, so its been a while. A whole year to be exact. It took me one whole year to get back on the wagon. I guess that’s what happens when you something crushes so hard and you give up on everything. I do not blame that event that happened. I blame me.

I should not have relied so much on a person, and I should not have given up on everything and fucked all and just ate my misery away for a year. I found happiness in food, and that was wrong. Everything I worked for previously, all the weight I lost, I put it all and more back on. I was at my lowest point, lower than low. I was reading my older posts, I was so motivated, I was doing so well, and it all went down the drain, I let my emotions take over.

But it is a new year now, 2014! And I have feeling that last year , though I was at a low point, I have overcome the obstacles I needed to get over, and learned a lot more about myself and now it is time to get back into the game.

The difference is that THIS time, I am doing it for ME.  It is time to get healthy, it is time to LOSE WEIGHT.

I have recently been inspired by a friend of mine, who did this diet, and lost a whole lot of weight, so I've decided to take this up.

Its the Atkins no carb diet. Completely no carbs. I have been doing it for three weeks now, and I am finally being able to fit into my older clothes which I could not even zip up last year. Still tight, but it is working so far.

Of course with a diet, exercise is also essential and because of my condition, I have taken to doing aerobics at home, cardio and toning, it doesn't put so much stress on my foot and so far so good. I just really don't want that burning pain like my foot is on fire to come back because of that stupid bone in my foot. I do miss running, but maybe I will go back to running when I shed more weight.

I weighed myself recently because I am doing Shay's Diet Bet. I have a long way to go to get back to where I was when I was running. But I will do it! I will loose the weight. I need to lose about 50 kg. My friend lost it over a year, but seeing his massive weight loss is possible it has given me inspiration.

I know results wont come fast and there will be plato, but I promise to myself, that no longer I will give up on these things and I will keep going.