Ankle Frustration

Yesterday I decided to do a 7km. Which I have done before and can do it. I pushed myself to break my personal best of 5km, however my Endomondo kind of screwed up so I will never know. 

Anyway for some reason, I forgot to wear my rock tape. 

So now, my ankle is on fire and I can hardly walk properly. 

To top that, my shin splints are quite painful. 

I am so very frustrated with my stupid Accessory Navicular Syndrome. Why oh Why have I been blessed with an extra bone in my foot which causes pain every time I exert myself. 

I am so frustrated. But I will go on. 

I don't know if I can do the PJ this Sunday. Maybe I will do the 3km. It will depend on how this thing heals. Sigh. I am so very frustrated. BUT , I will go on. To the extent my body allows me to. 

Not Giving Up! Not Backing Down!

Yesterday, I went for one of my first participation's in a longer distance run. 6.4km Be a Runner Be A Giver. (Previously, the Jog for Hope was 3km)

And since I am purely honest in this blog, I would say I was quite disappointed and upset in myself, and I felt the worst I have ever felt after a run. I felt a kind of down, I haven't felt in a long time that I went home and cried.

Trying to push myself made the sharp pain in my foot come back, and it came back full blast, the pain was excruciating. And being yelled at to run and not walk when you have an excruciating pain in your foot, not the best experience.  Further more, taking part in it made me realize I am so far behind, and I've got such a long way to go. My friends are way up there, and I felt I will never be able to get there. It probably got to me more because I was doing it alone. It upset me quite a bit, and I felt extremely demotivated yesterday, and wanted to give up on participating in these events, till I am actually ready. I wanted to scratch the 7km PJ Marathon and the 5km Putrajaya Night Run.Because yesterday, I just felt like I really can't do it. Emotional and mental pain.

BUT, after I spoke to a few friends and I did some proper thinking, and watched the Shay Carl video again. I changed my mind and I have decided to not give up.

If I think I can't I never will be able to. The power of the mind.

So,I changed my perception and decided to suck it up. Yesterday I did 6.4km, even though it be slow, the fact is , I did it. I got up in the morning and did it. I lapped everyone who was in bed that morning. It IS something.

And I should be happy that I have actually gotten that far. I  have to remind myself, Small Steps. I mean, that is the title of my blog.

There is no fast road to achieving my ultimate goal. I just have to suck it up and keep going.

So I am doing the PJ and the Putrajaya, even though I suck! I will do it, I will keep going, to the extent my foot allows me to.

I should be happy and proud that I got up and did it, because I can. When I first started this, doing 4kms. I thought that was my limit. Now,my daily workouts are 6.5kms. Slow progress, but its progress non the less.

So, I had a bad day. It has to not stop me. It should never stop you. Yes, I had some irrational thinking. But now with my head clearer, I will not let it pull me down.

I will have one big challenge to overcome, which is the pain in my foot, but I will do something about it, and it should not stop me. And I will keep going.

Some pictures from yesterday. My favourite colour as well.

Thank you Wils, for making me do this. And Thank you Hanna for telling me to not let it discourage me. And thank you Hariz and Sam for making me feel better. :)

Small distance it is. But , I did it. And I will keep on trying. 

P.S, as of today, I've lost 13 KG! =)

Inspirational

So, I love watching YouTube, and I have my set of favourite youtubers who I watch daily. And there is this one guy, who I have been watching for almost 3 years now, he does daily vlogs of his life. I am an absolute fan of his.

Anyways,recently he went through a whole get fit and lose weight regime, and he lost 100 pounds. He used to be big, and I was watching his videos when he was big, but then he decided one day to just get healthy.

Here are his after and before pictures pictures :

In the top picture he is the one on the right. 

He is truly inspirational. He lost all that weight, AND ran a marathon. 

And I feel so much more motivated cause he is one of my favourite youtubers, and he is real, and he did it! He did videos every week, of the process. He has a channel called ShayLoss , and its all about losing weight, and about how you just have to keep going. All you have to do is set your mind to it. 

Anyway, the purpose of this post is to share this inspirational running video he did, which I absolutely LOVE and is a good motivational video. I guess I feel it more, because I have been watching him for 3 years, and his transformation is just absolutely amazing and inspiring.

Please watch this video guys if you want to watch something inspirational! I love the whole concept of the rocks in the end and do Thumbs Up if you can :)

Quotes from the video :

"Someday doesn't exist, never has and never will.There is no someday,there is only TODAY."

"Real super man don't leap over buildings in a single bound, they take small determined steps, consistently over time."

"Its not about finding out who you are, its about creating who you are."

"Whether you think you can, or you think you cant. You're right."

"Ask yourself honestly, who do you wanna be, and what are you willing to do to become that person"

Breakthrough Distance!

Yesterday, I did my FIRST 10km ever!! =)

Slow and steady! And I feel good about it. I never thought I would actually be able to complete it, but I just kept pushing myself. At each km after doing 6km I wanted to give up, but I told myself "its only a lil bit more, I can DO THIS!"

I knew I could do it, and I did.

I did it slowly. But to me the fact is, I did it. And that was a true breakthrough.

Now, I have to focus on scraping 30 minutes of that so I can take part in the Standard Charted next year. I hope it is possible.

So yes, apologies for the long hiatus on the blogging, if there is anyone out there still reading this. A lot of things have been happening and I just could not find the time. I have not stopped working out though! I try to do at least do 3 times a week, but I have to get back to my pace of doing it almost every day. I have kept to my constant pace of 5km under an hour, but I know I need to take it a level up and beat my personal best of 5km.

I will, and I can.

I have signed up for more things, to note on the side bar. I hope these things will keep me going. I need to achieve that Goal of mine.

As of today, I have officially lost 10kg. Which makes me feel really good and happy about myself, because this is very first time I have done a weight loss regime and actually stuck to it, and got good results out of it. Another 30+kg to go! Slow and steady. It can be done.

Still Going

Apologies for the long hiatus in not updating.

No worries! I am still going!! Must keep going! Will post a proper update soon.

Been busy with quite a number of things.