Going Good

So being on this low carb diet is showing good results! I have lost 9 kg so far since the 26th of December, when I started this. It is now time to up the exercise.

I recently took part in ShayCarl's diet bet and won USD 43~! Yay! This dietbet is a really good form of social media dieting. Basically you put in money, for the above I put in USD30 and there will be a pot of money, and you have 1 month to loose 4% of your body weight. If you do lose 4% you will get back your money and some of the money in the pot. I find it motivational because I want my money back lol. It is also very encouraging as there are many people taking part in the bet, and there is a form of support system.

Heres the link for more information: http://www.dietbetter.com/

There are always new challenges, and I am thinking about joining the Transfromer one. It is to lose 10% in 6 months. Its a good think to keep me going.

This is the year of "re-branding" for me, the past is the past, there is no more time to remain stagnant!!

Its going

So finally got the scale working.

I am losing weight , just by being on this diet, BUT, I have not been exercising regurlary, an aerobics video here and there is not enough.

I not only need to lose weight, I want to be healthy and build up my stamina.

Gotta get off this damn couch and start moving.

I guess currently my head is so tied up in two things, my job and this guy.

BUT THATS A SILLY EXCUSE!!

Have to start doing more regular work outs, I know I will feel better.

New Beginnings 2014!

Ok, so its been a while. A whole year to be exact. It took me one whole year to get back on the wagon. I guess that’s what happens when you something crushes so hard and you give up on everything. I do not blame that event that happened. I blame me.

I should not have relied so much on a person, and I should not have given up on everything and fucked all and just ate my misery away for a year. I found happiness in food, and that was wrong. Everything I worked for previously, all the weight I lost, I put it all and more back on. I was at my lowest point, lower than low. I was reading my older posts, I was so motivated, I was doing so well, and it all went down the drain, I let my emotions take over.

But it is a new year now, 2014! And I have feeling that last year , though I was at a low point, I have overcome the obstacles I needed to get over, and learned a lot more about myself and now it is time to get back into the game.

The difference is that THIS time, I am doing it for ME.  It is time to get healthy, it is time to LOSE WEIGHT.

I have recently been inspired by a friend of mine, who did this diet, and lost a whole lot of weight, so I've decided to take this up.

Its the Atkins no carb diet. Completely no carbs. I have been doing it for three weeks now, and I am finally being able to fit into my older clothes which I could not even zip up last year. Still tight, but it is working so far.

Of course with a diet, exercise is also essential and because of my condition, I have taken to doing aerobics at home, cardio and toning, it doesn't put so much stress on my foot and so far so good. I just really don't want that burning pain like my foot is on fire to come back because of that stupid bone in my foot. I do miss running, but maybe I will go back to running when I shed more weight.

I weighed myself recently because I am doing Shay's Diet Bet. I have a long way to go to get back to where I was when I was running. But I will do it! I will loose the weight. I need to lose about 50 kg. My friend lost it over a year, but seeing his massive weight loss is possible it has given me inspiration.

I know results wont come fast and there will be plato, but I promise to myself, that no longer I will give up on these things and I will keep going.

Getting back on my feet

Hello running blog. It has been a while, and I think I am finally ready to come back to this and get back on feet again.

Re-Reading this blog made me see how motivated I was at achieving my goal, and I was doing so well.

Something happened last year which affected me emotionally in ways I can not describe. I will not go into depth what it is in relation to, but basically I gave up. I gave up on EVERYTHING. The emotional pain and hurt took over, and I just fucked it all away. The thing that happened last year made me loathe running to a point it disgusted me. It made me hate myself.

And I gave up, and I ate. I ate and ate and could not control my emotional eating. I stopped exercising. I put the weight back on that I lost and I basically gave up on everything I had worked for, I gave up on life and everything else around me as well. Basically it was a crash and burn, and a very very bad burn it was. I was a mess and could not crawl out of this hole I fell into.

Looking back now, it was SO stupid of me now to be so affected by two toxic human beings. If something is toxic and in your path, be rid of it !!

It has been 8 months. EIGHT MONTHS I have WASTED AWAY. It is all my fault for letting my emotions take over me. I am so frustrated with myself.

I crashed, and now it is time to get back on my feet and keep going. Watching Shay Carl's videos ( my idol,role model and inspiration), when he talks about never giving up and how far he has come in life, it made me snap back to reality.

I've got to keep going and get back on my feet, ok so maybe I can't do much running on roads anymore (due to the bone) , but I can still do the treadmill!

And I keep talking about picking up cycling, but have not made the effort to learn. I've just got to get out there and do it. I need to stop being stagnant blob and move the fuck on.

Its time for me to SUCK IT UP, SCREW THE PAST, and KEEP GOING!

It's time to get back into shape!

On another note, one thing healthy that I have done over the past have year is QUIT SMOKING! It is now officially 5 months since I have last smoked a cigarette and I feel great! I will leave that to another post.

Away

Hello, Yes I’ve been away again. I was in London last week for work and holiday. It was a good trip! A trip I never thought I would be able to do so soon.

I planned on running in one of the parks in London, or along the seaside in Brighton but it was just way too cold, and on some days rainy, rainy and cold! .

But being in London, well, the UK, it’s all about the walking and according to my calculations just walking to and fro to from the apartment I stayed in to wherever I went, I walked about 8km a day (4km each way). This is a good thing!! And the pace people walk over there is not a slow pace. It’s a fast pace, and you have to keep up to not get in the way of others. So it was good exercise!

I did however encounter one problem over there. My oh so problematic foot!

It was just so very very painful, and the pain got so sharp and excruciating sometimes that I just had to sit down and rest. It was so very painful, which I found so annoying, because it limited me in terms of time, having to sit down and rest my foot, and I couldn’t walk and do as much as I hoped to.  But all in all, I had a good time!

So, now it’s time to get back to the daily routines. I need to get going again. Continue with the exercise weight loss regime. I have yet to weigh myself from when I came back from London, cause I did cheat and eat some yummy food which I know I can’t get here. But I still controlled my intake.  I need to keep going, and must not be discouraged!

Ankle Frustration

Yesterday I decided to do a 7km. Which I have done before and can do it. I pushed myself to break my personal best of 5km, however my Endomondo kind of screwed up so I will never know. 

Anyway for some reason, I forgot to wear my rock tape. 

So now, my ankle is on fire and I can hardly walk properly. 

To top that, my shin splints are quite painful. 

I am so very frustrated with my stupid Accessory Navicular Syndrome. Why oh Why have I been blessed with an extra bone in my foot which causes pain every time I exert myself. 

I am so frustrated. But I will go on. 

I don't know if I can do the PJ this Sunday. Maybe I will do the 3km. It will depend on how this thing heals. Sigh. I am so very frustrated. BUT , I will go on. To the extent my body allows me to. 

Not Giving Up! Not Backing Down!

Yesterday, I went for one of my first participation's in a longer distance run. 6.4km Be a Runner Be A Giver. (Previously, the Jog for Hope was 3km)

And since I am purely honest in this blog, I would say I was quite disappointed and upset in myself, and I felt the worst I have ever felt after a run. I felt a kind of down, I haven't felt in a long time that I went home and cried.

Trying to push myself made the sharp pain in my foot come back, and it came back full blast, the pain was excruciating. And being yelled at to run and not walk when you have an excruciating pain in your foot, not the best experience.  Further more, taking part in it made me realize I am so far behind, and I've got such a long way to go. My friends are way up there, and I felt I will never be able to get there. It probably got to me more because I was doing it alone. It upset me quite a bit, and I felt extremely demotivated yesterday, and wanted to give up on participating in these events, till I am actually ready. I wanted to scratch the 7km PJ Marathon and the 5km Putrajaya Night Run.Because yesterday, I just felt like I really can't do it. Emotional and mental pain.

BUT, after I spoke to a few friends and I did some proper thinking, and watched the Shay Carl video again. I changed my mind and I have decided to not give up.

If I think I can't I never will be able to. The power of the mind.

So,I changed my perception and decided to suck it up. Yesterday I did 6.4km, even though it be slow, the fact is , I did it. I got up in the morning and did it. I lapped everyone who was in bed that morning. It IS something.

And I should be happy that I have actually gotten that far. I  have to remind myself, Small Steps. I mean, that is the title of my blog.

There is no fast road to achieving my ultimate goal. I just have to suck it up and keep going.

So I am doing the PJ and the Putrajaya, even though I suck! I will do it, I will keep going, to the extent my foot allows me to.

I should be happy and proud that I got up and did it, because I can. When I first started this, doing 4kms. I thought that was my limit. Now,my daily workouts are 6.5kms. Slow progress, but its progress non the less.

So, I had a bad day. It has to not stop me. It should never stop you. Yes, I had some irrational thinking. But now with my head clearer, I will not let it pull me down.

I will have one big challenge to overcome, which is the pain in my foot, but I will do something about it, and it should not stop me. And I will keep going.

Some pictures from yesterday. My favourite colour as well.

Thank you Wils, for making me do this. And Thank you Hanna for telling me to not let it discourage me. And thank you Hariz and Sam for making me feel better. :)

Small distance it is. But , I did it. And I will keep on trying. 

P.S, as of today, I've lost 13 KG! =)

Inspirational

So, I love watching YouTube, and I have my set of favourite youtubers who I watch daily. And there is this one guy, who I have been watching for almost 3 years now, he does daily vlogs of his life. I am an absolute fan of his.

Anyways,recently he went through a whole get fit and lose weight regime, and he lost 100 pounds. He used to be big, and I was watching his videos when he was big, but then he decided one day to just get healthy.

Here are his after and before pictures pictures :

In the top picture he is the one on the right. 

He is truly inspirational. He lost all that weight, AND ran a marathon. 

And I feel so much more motivated cause he is one of my favourite youtubers, and he is real, and he did it! He did videos every week, of the process. He has a channel called ShayLoss , and its all about losing weight, and about how you just have to keep going. All you have to do is set your mind to it. 

Anyway, the purpose of this post is to share this inspirational running video he did, which I absolutely LOVE and is a good motivational video. I guess I feel it more, because I have been watching him for 3 years, and his transformation is just absolutely amazing and inspiring.

Please watch this video guys if you want to watch something inspirational! I love the whole concept of the rocks in the end and do Thumbs Up if you can :)

Quotes from the video :

"Someday doesn't exist, never has and never will.There is no someday,there is only TODAY."

"Real super man don't leap over buildings in a single bound, they take small determined steps, consistently over time."

"Its not about finding out who you are, its about creating who you are."

"Whether you think you can, or you think you cant. You're right."

"Ask yourself honestly, who do you wanna be, and what are you willing to do to become that person"

Breakthrough Distance!

Yesterday, I did my FIRST 10km ever!! =)

Slow and steady! And I feel good about it. I never thought I would actually be able to complete it, but I just kept pushing myself. At each km after doing 6km I wanted to give up, but I told myself "its only a lil bit more, I can DO THIS!"

I knew I could do it, and I did.

I did it slowly. But to me the fact is, I did it. And that was a true breakthrough.

Now, I have to focus on scraping 30 minutes of that so I can take part in the Standard Charted next year. I hope it is possible.

So yes, apologies for the long hiatus on the blogging, if there is anyone out there still reading this. A lot of things have been happening and I just could not find the time. I have not stopped working out though! I try to do at least do 3 times a week, but I have to get back to my pace of doing it almost every day. I have kept to my constant pace of 5km under an hour, but I know I need to take it a level up and beat my personal best of 5km.

I will, and I can.

I have signed up for more things, to note on the side bar. I hope these things will keep me going. I need to achieve that Goal of mine.

As of today, I have officially lost 10kg. Which makes me feel really good and happy about myself, because this is very first time I have done a weight loss regime and actually stuck to it, and got good results out of it. Another 30+kg to go! Slow and steady. It can be done.

Still Going

Apologies for the long hiatus in not updating.

No worries! I am still going!! Must keep going! Will post a proper update soon.

Been busy with quite a number of things.